5/30/2025
Sometimes I’m extremely productive and other times I really struggle to make any progress at all.
I have no real idea how common this is with people. But I have been aware of it in my story for a while now. Maybe I have been describing myself that way to a few others for a year. But as I think back, I’ve been this way for as long as I can remember. I can’t explain it other than to say that sometimes I’m extremely productive and other times I really struggle to make any progress at all. When I’m clearly in productivity mode, I hardly notice it. It’s like a wave I’m riding. But other times, when I can’t seem to gain traction, I am painfully aware. Today has been a day like that.
I woke up with some good plans for the day. The main thing on my calendar was a meeting online with Destino people from around the country. It was from 1:30-3:30. I had a good call before that and sent some important email. But a few things I began the day wanting to get done are still not done and it’s 6:40.
Maybe I’m a procrastinator. But I don’t really think so. I know I’m not lazy. I looked up “Fits and Starts” on the internet to see if I could get a sense of what’s going on here. The definition I saw first says that it means, “something progresses or happens in short, inconsistent, and irregular spurts, not steadily or continuously. It’s like a car that sputters and stalls instead of running smoothly. The phrase implies periods of activity followed by periods of inactivity or delay.” I don’t think that is exactly fits either. I’ll go full steam ahead firing on all cylinders for a good many days and then run pretty rough for a day or two.
I’m wondering if this is something that I need to try to fix? Or embrace? I’m leaning toward embracing and managing.
Either way, I want to take at least one step of faith every day. And I want to do at least one meaningful thing every day. Some days will be have more of each. But every day should have at least one.